Austin is an amazing city with an opportunity to meet new people and stay active...whether it be competitive in sport or just running your dog around the dog park.
When I moved to Austin I ran. Only ran. The same trail, the same distance. My friends Larry and Leslie introduced me to the Gazelles....it rocked! I just didn't stick with it. It is there I can alway join up!
Then there is Rogue. Rogue got me through my very first Danskin triathlon and I had so much support while I had no idea how to clip on or swim efficiently. They got me through. I believe Leslie introduced me to them too.
I was ready for the next level. In comes T3. T3 got me through my first half Ironman and my first Ironman.
I like variety and ready to branch out to other activities and additional people. I love to meet new people and having the opportunity to meet them while trail running, whatever running, swimming, biking or yoga is how I like to live my life. Having people like this in my life keep me going and I never feel alone.
I have lost a few friends I feel like and that is ok. It happens and part of it is due to my situation at the present moment. I have not been myself and am going through some major life changes.
At the perfect time to start over new comes Tempo Multisport!
"Tempo Multisport was founded in 2009 by Tammy Metzger, an Ironman athlete, and student of sports psychology and exercise physiology. Tammy started professional coaching in early 2006 at Cycle University in Seattle, Washington. She currently holds a bachelor of science degree in Exercise Science from Bastyr University, also in Seattle, and is finishing up her Master’s of Education degree from the University of Texas at Austin, majoring in Sport & Exercise Psychology, with a strong focus on Exercise Physiology. Next fall she will be transfering into UT Austin’s coordinated nutrition program to attain certification as a Registered Dietitian.".
As soon as I recover from the last two races I have done I will begin a new experience. So far I really like the people involved with Tempo Multisport as it is in it's beginning stages. Such awesome friends Tammy has who are willing to support her and see this group succeed..for the good of the community. I smile every time I see a new sponsor on her list and know this can be a little overwhelming.
To some people it may seem like just another tri group in Austin. To me it is a chance to learn new ways to train, network and have some fun and offer my support and enthusiasm in seeing others succeed.
I don't like letting chances like this pass me by. I never know who I will meet. My new best friend, a best friend for a best friend, friends for Peenelope...whatever. I don't see this as another tri group for which I have to choose. I see it as an addition.
Congratulations to Tammy and thank you for including me in your new venture!
Monday, February 15, 2010
Friday, February 12, 2010
2010 - The Year of Bandera and Rocky Raccoon
At the beginning of the year my new year's resolution was to begin spending more time off the road and on the trail. This includes trail running and mountain biking. Since I am not making a steady income trail running is all can afford. Will pick back up with triathlon training when I get a job.
So for now trail running it is and Bandera was first on the list. I was so sceeeered. I was told of the rough and challenging hills and rocks so I thought maaaaybe I should wait until I do some trail run training.
Naaaa.
I decided to just go on out there and do the 15 mile ( 30K ?) run. Then I heard it was going to be 10 degrees so I changed my mind. I didn't feel like finding a sitter for Peenelope and staying there over the weekend. Then Ali and Roman said they would drive with me that morning and come back after. Damn Ali! So I changed my mind again, got up at 4 am, drove to Bandera and did the run starting in, yup, 10 degrees. I had THE BEST TIME EVER! I am sooo glad I did it and was able to come home and sleep in my warm bed with Peenelope. Yes, I told her all about my day. Met a couple of new people, saw Logan at the beginning then saw Elizabeth and Jess who were cheering. Then I got my medal, changed in Logan's tent, hung out with Rhonda, Val, Amy, Ali, and Roman and cheered on Vegas, Jane Bui and Jerry as they did the 50K. I also saw Mike and Meredith at an aid station. Fun fun day! Got me out of my funk.
I had soo much fun on the trail not thinking about my shitty life as I know it to be right now. By shitty I mean I really hate not working and buying stuff.
That night after Bandera I signed up for Rocky Raccoon. A 50 MILE trail run in Huntsville. ( My training consisted of a couple of marathons and no trail running except for Bandera - not the smartest move but who cares).
So Rocky...
Drove up there with Vegas and Jane. They knew everything they needed for a trail run of this distance. I was like shit..I need a bandana!? Gators? Green light? Learned a lot! We pick up our packet, go to the briefing, got our drop bags together and went to bed for a 4:15 am wake up call.
Our hotel was so nice and opened breakfast at 4 am for all the runners. Sweet! Jerry met us and we were on our way. 6 am was when the 100 milers started. We saw a bunch of bobbing headlamps running towards us. It was so cool to see!
7 am - We start out for what was going to be the longest friggin run of my life. It was soo pretty out there. Tall trees, a really pretty lake ( which at night was more scary because of the laughing clown sounds coming from it). We had to run 3 loops of about 16 miles...( teeny bit more to equal 50). Start cold, got warm ,ended cold. We got to our drop bag twice and then when we finished so we could change. I could have done better at that. I didn't change my shoes and got massive blisters between my toesies. Sexy. I also should have had my gloves. My hands were cold. I have never had foot pain like I did on this run. Almost a week later and my feet still hurt. That is about it really. No other muscle soreness believe it or not. It took 14 hours.
This was more mental for me than anything. Harder than a 16/17 hour Ironman. Just didn't think I would be able to finish. Really doubted myself but out loud would say I am going to finish this. Inside I was so scared I would drop. I kept going. Didn't sit down once because I totally knew that would be the end.
My plan going in was to eat like I would a normal marathon..gu's and crap. Then halfway in enjoy all the junk at the aid stations. Grill cheese, P,B and J, Ham and Cheese sandwiches, Chicken noodle soup, potatoes and salt, candy...oh the candy! The problem was I completely lost my appetite. It took everything I had to get down the food in the alloted 7 minutes we allowed ourselves at each aid station. I just couldn't eat and that sucked. I forced it. I know I was well hydrated. I had to pee every 20 minutes. Yup, a few squats had to be done.
When we finished all I wanted to do again was of course pee, take off my shoes, assess the damage, take a vicodin, drink some wine, eat pizza and celebrate with Vegas and Jane. That was the best. Hangin out with them, our Rocky Racoon sweatshirts, crawling around the room to get from suitcase to chair to bed and discussing how it went. The 14 hour longest run of my life. I really don't think I can do it again but it all depends on what funk I have going on.
I got to forget about life for a day and focus on the pain in my feet instead. I am so glad I did it and thank Vegas for talking me into it...just like she did Ironman. Watch out for her. She will bring your inner warrior out. Sometimes that is just what I need.
So for now trail running it is and Bandera was first on the list. I was so sceeeered. I was told of the rough and challenging hills and rocks so I thought maaaaybe I should wait until I do some trail run training.
Naaaa.
I decided to just go on out there and do the 15 mile ( 30K ?) run. Then I heard it was going to be 10 degrees so I changed my mind. I didn't feel like finding a sitter for Peenelope and staying there over the weekend. Then Ali and Roman said they would drive with me that morning and come back after. Damn Ali! So I changed my mind again, got up at 4 am, drove to Bandera and did the run starting in, yup, 10 degrees. I had THE BEST TIME EVER! I am sooo glad I did it and was able to come home and sleep in my warm bed with Peenelope. Yes, I told her all about my day. Met a couple of new people, saw Logan at the beginning then saw Elizabeth and Jess who were cheering. Then I got my medal, changed in Logan's tent, hung out with Rhonda, Val, Amy, Ali, and Roman and cheered on Vegas, Jane Bui and Jerry as they did the 50K. I also saw Mike and Meredith at an aid station. Fun fun day! Got me out of my funk.
I had soo much fun on the trail not thinking about my shitty life as I know it to be right now. By shitty I mean I really hate not working and buying stuff.
That night after Bandera I signed up for Rocky Raccoon. A 50 MILE trail run in Huntsville. ( My training consisted of a couple of marathons and no trail running except for Bandera - not the smartest move but who cares).
So Rocky...
Drove up there with Vegas and Jane. They knew everything they needed for a trail run of this distance. I was like shit..I need a bandana!? Gators? Green light? Learned a lot! We pick up our packet, go to the briefing, got our drop bags together and went to bed for a 4:15 am wake up call.
Our hotel was so nice and opened breakfast at 4 am for all the runners. Sweet! Jerry met us and we were on our way. 6 am was when the 100 milers started. We saw a bunch of bobbing headlamps running towards us. It was so cool to see!
7 am - We start out for what was going to be the longest friggin run of my life. It was soo pretty out there. Tall trees, a really pretty lake ( which at night was more scary because of the laughing clown sounds coming from it). We had to run 3 loops of about 16 miles...( teeny bit more to equal 50). Start cold, got warm ,ended cold. We got to our drop bag twice and then when we finished so we could change. I could have done better at that. I didn't change my shoes and got massive blisters between my toesies. Sexy. I also should have had my gloves. My hands were cold. I have never had foot pain like I did on this run. Almost a week later and my feet still hurt. That is about it really. No other muscle soreness believe it or not. It took 14 hours.
This was more mental for me than anything. Harder than a 16/17 hour Ironman. Just didn't think I would be able to finish. Really doubted myself but out loud would say I am going to finish this. Inside I was so scared I would drop. I kept going. Didn't sit down once because I totally knew that would be the end.
My plan going in was to eat like I would a normal marathon..gu's and crap. Then halfway in enjoy all the junk at the aid stations. Grill cheese, P,B and J, Ham and Cheese sandwiches, Chicken noodle soup, potatoes and salt, candy...oh the candy! The problem was I completely lost my appetite. It took everything I had to get down the food in the alloted 7 minutes we allowed ourselves at each aid station. I just couldn't eat and that sucked. I forced it. I know I was well hydrated. I had to pee every 20 minutes. Yup, a few squats had to be done.
When we finished all I wanted to do again was of course pee, take off my shoes, assess the damage, take a vicodin, drink some wine, eat pizza and celebrate with Vegas and Jane. That was the best. Hangin out with them, our Rocky Racoon sweatshirts, crawling around the room to get from suitcase to chair to bed and discussing how it went. The 14 hour longest run of my life. I really don't think I can do it again but it all depends on what funk I have going on.
I got to forget about life for a day and focus on the pain in my feet instead. I am so glad I did it and thank Vegas for talking me into it...just like she did Ironman. Watch out for her. She will bring your inner warrior out. Sometimes that is just what I need.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Friday, May 29, 2009
Big Brothers Big Sisters
Hi.
I was a part of BBBS about 6 years ago. Tawaina was my little's name. She is about 19 now. We still keep in touch. Mostly by text and email. She calls me sis and tells me she loves me. The thing is when we were hanging out we had very few words. I never thought I was doing enough and thought I was the worst Big.
We did stuff like festivals, made pizza at my place, watched movies, carved pumpkins on Halloween and went roller skating. Things like that. Still with very little to say.
I never thought I would be friends with her 6 year later, she living in Dallas ( fair park area of town) and me here in Austin. She did not live in the worst area but not the safest by ANY means. I remember driving her friend home one night...and that was SCARY.
This little girl was in essence my Big. She taught me that just being there for someone, whether silent or not, is so meaningful if your heart is really in it. The other person can tell. I truly wanted to do a good job at being her Big Sis and made it for one year before I moved to Austin. Some Bigs are amazing. They did soooo much for their little and have been there for them for years. That is what I was comparing myself too. It does not matter. I did the best I could and she knew that.
To this day whenever I am in a funk or just not myself she knows. I will get a text from her with a psalm verse or just a positive saying. Of course she is still a kid so I get the silly texts too that she forwards to and from her friends. Makes me smile.
I post this as a reminder of how important it is to get over yourself. On those days that you are feeling sorry for yourself try doing something nice for someone else. You never know how awesome of timing it will be and will make you feel tons better. Sure, that could sound a little selfish but it is win win.
I did not have to act like her mom, did not teach her school stuff or give her any advice about life.
I was just there.
I was a part of BBBS about 6 years ago. Tawaina was my little's name. She is about 19 now. We still keep in touch. Mostly by text and email. She calls me sis and tells me she loves me. The thing is when we were hanging out we had very few words. I never thought I was doing enough and thought I was the worst Big.
We did stuff like festivals, made pizza at my place, watched movies, carved pumpkins on Halloween and went roller skating. Things like that. Still with very little to say.
I never thought I would be friends with her 6 year later, she living in Dallas ( fair park area of town) and me here in Austin. She did not live in the worst area but not the safest by ANY means. I remember driving her friend home one night...and that was SCARY.
This little girl was in essence my Big. She taught me that just being there for someone, whether silent or not, is so meaningful if your heart is really in it. The other person can tell. I truly wanted to do a good job at being her Big Sis and made it for one year before I moved to Austin. Some Bigs are amazing. They did soooo much for their little and have been there for them for years. That is what I was comparing myself too. It does not matter. I did the best I could and she knew that.
To this day whenever I am in a funk or just not myself she knows. I will get a text from her with a psalm verse or just a positive saying. Of course she is still a kid so I get the silly texts too that she forwards to and from her friends. Makes me smile.
I post this as a reminder of how important it is to get over yourself. On those days that you are feeling sorry for yourself try doing something nice for someone else. You never know how awesome of timing it will be and will make you feel tons better. Sure, that could sound a little selfish but it is win win.
I did not have to act like her mom, did not teach her school stuff or give her any advice about life.
I was just there.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Timing
"Difficulties are meant to rouse, not discourage. The human spirit is to grow strong by conflict."
"Be on the alert to recognize your prime at whatever time of your life it may occur. "
Maybe 38 years old is my prime. I always wonder when it will be my year and with all the changes happening around and on my birthday, after all the beatings from the last 6 months, I have to believe this is the year.
I really appreciate Erin and Tom for taking the time to fine tune my interviewing skills and offering any professional help without me asking for it. I love that I have friends who are there for me and know when I need a hand, guidance and/or a hug. I know that sounds gay but looking into the eyes of these two people I can honestly say I would recommended them as a friend to anyone. Cindy and Esther wrote me beee u tee ful letters of recommendation and totally helped seal the deal. What support! The flex team! What an awesome honor to be part of that. We without jobs were able to find a positive outlet with triathlon and see that we are not alone. I think that was so great even though others who were working felt otherwise. Listen, we needed to make the best of our situation and if it took us going out on our long ride on a Friday afternoon then so be it.
I get to start a new career with excitement that I have never felt before in a "job". Money is not everything anymore to me and thank goodness because it is going to take me 2 years to get my territory up and running. I have mentioned money is not everything in my earlier blogs and I stand by that. Just now I get to put my two interests together...therapy and sales.
I get to do my Ironman knowing I have something to come home to. I do not have to worry about my next race goal because now it will be my career goal. ( and the Nike San Francisco marathon in October) ( and mountain bike riding) ( and rowing) ( and guitar lessons).
I am not too worried about a relationship because I learned that I have no control over the timing of that. Just like this career. It came at the time it was supposed to. I truly believe that if I am to be married one day I have to just let it happen in it's own time. As long as I feel complete with myself, and I am starting too, a marriage will be a perfect adjunct to my life. I want to get married one day. There. I said it. Out loud. Yikes. I really do and I want to be happy. I want to be secure with myself and want to trust. I am working on that too. Just going to take a very understanding man to assist me with that.
For now I am complete and happy with my awesome friends ( you know who you are), Peenut, soon to be career and Ironman! 38 here I come! ( I am still going to act and look younger though).
Smiles!
"Be on the alert to recognize your prime at whatever time of your life it may occur. "
Maybe 38 years old is my prime. I always wonder when it will be my year and with all the changes happening around and on my birthday, after all the beatings from the last 6 months, I have to believe this is the year.
I really appreciate Erin and Tom for taking the time to fine tune my interviewing skills and offering any professional help without me asking for it. I love that I have friends who are there for me and know when I need a hand, guidance and/or a hug. I know that sounds gay but looking into the eyes of these two people I can honestly say I would recommended them as a friend to anyone. Cindy and Esther wrote me beee u tee ful letters of recommendation and totally helped seal the deal. What support! The flex team! What an awesome honor to be part of that. We without jobs were able to find a positive outlet with triathlon and see that we are not alone. I think that was so great even though others who were working felt otherwise. Listen, we needed to make the best of our situation and if it took us going out on our long ride on a Friday afternoon then so be it.
I get to start a new career with excitement that I have never felt before in a "job". Money is not everything anymore to me and thank goodness because it is going to take me 2 years to get my territory up and running. I have mentioned money is not everything in my earlier blogs and I stand by that. Just now I get to put my two interests together...therapy and sales.
I get to do my Ironman knowing I have something to come home to. I do not have to worry about my next race goal because now it will be my career goal. ( and the Nike San Francisco marathon in October) ( and mountain bike riding) ( and rowing) ( and guitar lessons).
I am not too worried about a relationship because I learned that I have no control over the timing of that. Just like this career. It came at the time it was supposed to. I truly believe that if I am to be married one day I have to just let it happen in it's own time. As long as I feel complete with myself, and I am starting too, a marriage will be a perfect adjunct to my life. I want to get married one day. There. I said it. Out loud. Yikes. I really do and I want to be happy. I want to be secure with myself and want to trust. I am working on that too. Just going to take a very understanding man to assist me with that.
For now I am complete and happy with my awesome friends ( you know who you are), Peenut, soon to be career and Ironman! 38 here I come! ( I am still going to act and look younger though).
Smiles!
Friday, May 8, 2009
I love it so much I can't stand it!
I can not wait for this weekend of training. It is another very long weekend of riding and running. I am now going to pay attention to improvement and not just getting the miles in. I have more than proven I can and will do that and put most anything else second. MOST anything...not everything.
This weekend I want to see my improvement whether it be in strength or endurance...hopefully both. I will climb the hills to the best of my ability but I want to make sure I look at the overall picture. I am doing this ride in Liberty Hill specifically to face the hills and give myself one more confidence boost that I can do it and want to. I really do want to.
In the last 3 weeks I have been putting in at least 20 hours of workouts. This is mainly because of the extra 4 hours a week on the bike for the cycling study ( what I will do for money). This also added in a mental challenge in a major way by seeing how long I can push myself passed threshold. I truly believe that got me through the soul sucking Shiner ride. I am still talking about that ride. I am so proud of finishing that son of a bitch. The post ride tator tots and strawberry slushy rocked!
I am ready for this weekend and am getting more and more excited about being in Idaho. I get emotional about it. I visualize that finish line like crazy. I am so excited to be staying in a house with some of the most amazing friends I have made through this experience. Jane, Vegas ( who talked me into this), Katy, Val, and my roommate Ali. What an awesome fun and quirky group of girls. I look up to these woman...everyone of them. All different and all amazing. ( and I am not just saying that so they will come with me to check in).
I think I may have been all over the place with this blog. If you know me you aren't surprised. Oh a bird!
This weekend I want to see my improvement whether it be in strength or endurance...hopefully both. I will climb the hills to the best of my ability but I want to make sure I look at the overall picture. I am doing this ride in Liberty Hill specifically to face the hills and give myself one more confidence boost that I can do it and want to. I really do want to.
In the last 3 weeks I have been putting in at least 20 hours of workouts. This is mainly because of the extra 4 hours a week on the bike for the cycling study ( what I will do for money). This also added in a mental challenge in a major way by seeing how long I can push myself passed threshold. I truly believe that got me through the soul sucking Shiner ride. I am still talking about that ride. I am so proud of finishing that son of a bitch. The post ride tator tots and strawberry slushy rocked!
I am ready for this weekend and am getting more and more excited about being in Idaho. I get emotional about it. I visualize that finish line like crazy. I am so excited to be staying in a house with some of the most amazing friends I have made through this experience. Jane, Vegas ( who talked me into this), Katy, Val, and my roommate Ali. What an awesome fun and quirky group of girls. I look up to these woman...everyone of them. All different and all amazing. ( and I am not just saying that so they will come with me to check in).
I think I may have been all over the place with this blog. If you know me you aren't surprised. Oh a bird!
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Perspective
The last six months of my life...Oh boy. Lots of deep shit. Without rehashing the events that have taken place or how I have handled them I can honestly say I have held it together. The issues that I had may not be as serious as some others but everything is relative. Someone could be having a fat day and I feel their pain. I will not roll my eyes or belittle what anyone is going through anymore. Somone may have had an accident or be accused of saying or doing something; I will not immediately judge that he or she was in the wrong or that any of the words are true. If someone has done wrong, as I do at times, and asks for forgiveness, I will give it and move on. For real. Case closed.
I have grown very close to a handful of people and we all lead very different lives..yet connect in such a way that we respect and want to spend time with each other. How awesome is that! To have people in your life that actually like you, do things for you and are there for you without expecting anything in return.
I look at the whole picture of my life. So life may seem shitty right now but actually I am in the best place I can be. What? I do not have a job! I do not know if I would be able to train for my very first Ironman while working. I am all about 100% in most everything I do however; the way my body and mind is right now I feel exhaustion. I look at this group of people that I am around most of my time and am completely impressed. They have time for work, training and me. We laugh so much and if it wasn't for them I may see things less positive right now.
Sometimes I feel like the family I have made through Ironman training feels closer and connects more than my real family. I am known to make friends easily This group was itimidating to me at first. I write this to say just jump in. Take the past headtrash and chatter out of your self confidence and low self esteem and start over. People want a connection and want to feel cared for. They could be just as intimidated of you as you of them.
I can only be me and I want to be your friend. I am interested in who you are and what you are about. Until I have a reason not to trust you I will hold true to that.
I have grown very close to a handful of people and we all lead very different lives..yet connect in such a way that we respect and want to spend time with each other. How awesome is that! To have people in your life that actually like you, do things for you and are there for you without expecting anything in return.
I look at the whole picture of my life. So life may seem shitty right now but actually I am in the best place I can be. What? I do not have a job! I do not know if I would be able to train for my very first Ironman while working. I am all about 100% in most everything I do however; the way my body and mind is right now I feel exhaustion. I look at this group of people that I am around most of my time and am completely impressed. They have time for work, training and me. We laugh so much and if it wasn't for them I may see things less positive right now.
Sometimes I feel like the family I have made through Ironman training feels closer and connects more than my real family. I am known to make friends easily This group was itimidating to me at first. I write this to say just jump in. Take the past headtrash and chatter out of your self confidence and low self esteem and start over. People want a connection and want to feel cared for. They could be just as intimidated of you as you of them.
I can only be me and I want to be your friend. I am interested in who you are and what you are about. Until I have a reason not to trust you I will hold true to that.
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